I think i'll just add to the time of me not submitting anything, now that christmas has passed, and I have my new games. I might use them for ideas for my next stories but I have to beat them first...if its possible..

Cab.

Yeah, right now, I feel like my life sucks balls. I've felt like shit for the last week or so now. Bad luck, nervousness, paranoia, ignorance, I could probably go on for hours on how I've felt. I've been through it all, broken heart, deception, everything. I doubt I will smile for awhile, and if I do, its simply a facade, covering up my true feelings.

But even after all this, suicide isn't an option. I rather live my life alone, without anybody understanding me, for the next dozen years than kill myself.

I just can't understand my fate sometimes, making me believe that everything is going fine, then turning my life to shit, worthless. Life and fate suck, I know that we have our own paths in live, each with our own bumps and dips along the way, but somedays I believe that mine is worst than everyone elses. Although I know that I don't have it that bad.

Cab.

Right now, my life has gone to the dogs and they have shredded it to pieces. School sucks, my love life sucks, in total, everything sucks. Anyways, I don't know how much longer it will take me to get out of this "rut" but hopefully when i'm out, i'll start posting normally.

Cab.

No matter what I do, I act or look like an idiot when I try and talk to girls. I tried talkin to the girl from my school that I like tonight, hell..I dunno if she'll even look at me like a normal person anymore. People say I still have a chance, but I think my chance has been blown. In truth, girls and I don't always get along, and when we do, I blow it. I really really hope that I can have another chance with the girl I like, cause if not, i'll be lost for awhile.

Wish me luck,
Cab.

Every week has been getting more and more boring, just goes to show that I need a job. Yep, my fan-fic for Halo 2 is coming along well, i'm thinking of new ideas for a second one, so i'll be busy..hopefully..

Cab.